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My mom sent pictures that she took from our back porch at home in Wyoming this morning.
As much as I hate the cold, I wish I was at home right now.
My papa was back in the hospital again. They are testing him for leukemia. He has also been getting sinus infections pretty bad this fall so when he goes back to the Veteran's Hospital in Sheridan if it hasn't cleared up they are going to test him for some form of cancer in his nose.
This man means the world to my sister and I. Jennifer is completely falling apart and I am trying to be strong for her, but I am falling apart on the inside. I don't know how long I will be able to keep myself together.
I feel completely selfish, I can't stand that he has suffered so much in the last years, but I can't imagine life without him. I refuse to believe that that world could exist.