Can I kill her?

I am gonna kill her!

Is it okay if I kill her?

I am stinking tired of this double edged sword that I live with pointing at my heart. The one time that I woke Jennifer up because the phone rang at 3:30 am I heard about it for two weeks from her. And then from both of my parents the next time they were able to catch me at home once Jennifer had called and complained about it to them. If I wake her up the world is going to end.

I usually work until 3 am so I don't go to bed until sometime between 4 and 6 am. So when her cats come in and wake me up at 8 am, then she starts getting phone calls, then she has to come in and tell me she needs to borrow my cell phone because she has to make a long distance phone call, then once she leaves the house she has to call to tell me that she had to fax some papers to dad, then she calls to tell me that she is at Johnny's until she has to go to work. That was all today.

Of course I am going to be a little grumpy.

Usually I get woke up for these reasons:

• Do you have a hair brush? I left mine at Johnny's. (Then I don't get my brush back for a week and when it is returned it is filled with a week worth of Jennifer's hair.)
• Can you help me give "insert cat's name here" his/her medicine?
• Do you know where the phone is?
• Can I use your cell phone?
• Do you know where my keys are?
• Have you seen Johnny's cell phone?
• Can we take your cell phone so we can drive around and look for Johnny's cell phone?

I have to go to work at 5 and I won't get off until 3am. My job isn't like McDonald's where you have to clock out for 30 minutes and take a break. I don't get a break, I have to work for nearly 10 hours straight, if I am lucky I will get to sit down long enough to eat a taco before they need my help again. If I don't get enough rest before I go to work by the end of my shift my knee will be hurting more than normal and it will take me even longer to do what I have to do at close sometimes making my shift an extra 30 minutes longer because it hurts to walk.

Tomorrow I will get yelled at because our garbage wasn't taken down to the street so it could get picked up. Jennifer was up and outside by 11 am why she didn't take it out before she spread her blanket out in the yard to get skin cancer I don't know. I wasn't even planning on being awake until after the garbage truck came so why exactly it is my responsibility I'm not sure.

If I leave hair in the bath tub I get yelled at, Jennifer doesn't understand that unless she pulls up the bathmat when she is done in the shower, hair gets wrapped around the suction cups, so when she decides to take a bath and fills the tub up with water hair is going to appear in her water. I get yelled at for that. Today when I wake up (got up because I have been woken up so many times I can't go back to sleep) what do I find in the shower. All of the hair Jennifer just left when she got out of the shower 30 minutes earlier.

I get yelled at if I don't check the mail for 2 days. Jennifer has a key to the mail box, if it is that important to her she could walk her happy ass over to the mailboxes and check it. She hasn't done that once since we moved in on May 10th.

I'm about tired of the stupid deal about the dishes and the rest of the trailer. I'm sick of constantly doing dishes and having to live in a dirty house that Jennifer is supposed to clean but never does. When I have time and or energy to clean it everything is down at Johnny's house. My vacuum has been down there since the last time I cleaned the living room, our broom and dust pan have only been used here at the trailer once right when we moved in because they are at Johnny's. Jennifer spends more time cleaning his apartment than she does taking care of her responsibilities here at the trailer.

I'm sick of it. If Jennifer didn't do such a crappy job on the dishes I would just stop doing them. However, from now on when I check the mail I am only going to bring my mail back to the trailer, if she wants her mail she can go get it herself.

We will see how much trouble that gets me into.

I just want to get one night/day of sleep with out being woke up every twenty minutes after Jennifer has woke up.

I'm I such a terrible person for asking for at least that much respect?