The cause of my depression last night

Jennifer's response to my broken camera.
"blah blah blah blah?" (I had my headphones on listening to a CD.)
*removes headphones* "what?"
"Where is your camera?"
"It is on top of my camera case in the living room."

Jennifer roams around the house playing with the lights for a while, then turns the lights off and comes back to my bedroom.
"blah, blah..."
*takes headphones off again* "what?"
"Turn your stupid music down, where is the telephone?"
"In the living room on your bean bag, why didn't you just push the page button? My music is not even up loud, my headphones cover my whole ears they are not cheap headphones."

Jennifer mutters to herself as she walks down the hallway looking for the phone.

Guess who she has to call? Johnny probably to read him the note that I had wrote to her about my camera.

It goes like this:
Jennifer
When you borrow my camera please don't leave it somewhere the cats can knock it down from. When I woke up this morning my camera was in the middle of the kitchen floor. It was knocked off the table and now has a crack in one of the lenses.
I know it is not really your fault but I would like to eventually own a nice camera for more than a year before I have to replace it.
I hope you had a good day at work. I will see you after 3 when I get off.
I love you
Crista

Considering the circumstances I think that note was a lot nicer than I wanted to make it. I have to live with her, I don't want her to try to kill me in my sleep.

She was on the phone for probably 30 minutes and then I saw her go to her room to go to bed.

You would think she would apologize or tell me what she thought about my camera. So I got out of bed and went to see what she thought. "I can't really tell if it is a crack. I think it just might be a hair on the lens though. It might be cheaper for you to take it to a camera shop and have it repaired instead of replacing it."

She can't see things from any point of view other than her own. She doesn't see that I should not have to repair or replace my 13-month-old camera that I have treasured since the day I got it, because she borrowed it and left it sitting on the edge of a table that the cats like to play on. She doesn't see that if I am going to be the owner of a broken camera worth probably more than my car I should be the one that got to break it.

All she sees is that I am blaming her for something that her cats did. She refers to her cats as her kids. When a kid breaks the neighbors window does the child not have work off the value of replacing that window. Her cats can't make money to fix my camera, my camera wouldn't be broken if she hadn't used it with out asking me, my camera wouldn't be broken if she for once bought film for herself, so she could use her camera.

I went back to my room and tried to go back to reading my book, but I was distracted. Then my tummy started protesting that it had not been given food in 7 1/2 hours. I should have just made a tuna sandwich, but I wanted milk and our milk was sour. So I went to the store. (my last entry is all about that adventure)

So Jennifer went to work this morning at either 7 or 8, and hasn't been home since. She is either avoiding me by avoiding the trailer or she is just spending time with Johnny. It is probably a combination of the two. I'm sure Johnny hates me and they are looking for an apartment together so they can leave me here with the bills for everything.

Jennifer got mad at me when I asked if Johnny was going to help pay rent this month. I had to explain to her that the rent that we have to pay on the 1st is August's rent. Johnny will be living with us in August so he should pay his share of the rent right.

I am so sick of the whole situation. I am glad I came out to North Dakota because the school is so much better, but I wish I had done it under different circumstances. I would be a lot happier if I didn't have to deal with Jennifer and Johnny.