Blogged 4 March 2003

00:28

So sometime between July 2002 and March 2003, I totally forgot that this place existed. Not because I didn't like this little space, there has just been so much going on.

I quit working at Taco Bell and started working at Super Target in the Deli. In October Johnny moved out finally and Jennifer and I started getting along better. I also started training to work in Starbucks. That has been a great experience, I only get one night a week there now, but I really get along with the girl I work with and totally look forward to work on Monday nights.

I am still going to school at UND. I am not sure if I will register for classes in the fall or not. I am thinking that I want to take some time off and try to catch up on my debt. Plus this semester I am feeling super burnt out, I don't really think that it is because of school so much as living with my sister and not being able to work enough to live comfortably while going to school. So far today I have eaten a carrot and a bagel. Our refrigerator has a jar of pickles, what is left of half a gallon of milk that is probably sour, a bag of red delicious apples, some carrots, two bags of brown sugar and your condiments. It doesn't bother Jennifer that we have nothing to eat, because she can walk into McDonald's before her shift and get a free meal because she is a Crew Leader. If she doesn't work depending on the manager she can walk in on a day off and get a meal out of almost any one of them because they love her so much. Target doesn't work like that, I have to pay for everything. So when I do have money to buy a few meager groceries and Jennifer manages to devour them before I get a chance to take a bite it is a little upsetting.

We made it back to the great state of North Dakota and back to work, hours were cut and now I am feeling more desperate than ever. This week I was scheduled for 8 hours, 3 hours on Sunday and 5 hours tonight in Starbucks. I did end up going to work 3 hours early yesterday and staying 3 hours late, and today I ended up picking up a shift for Saturday, so I won't be totally screwed when I get a $50 pay check. The other night I think I saw an ad for the Holiday Inn Express looking for part time night clerks. I could probably do it Monday and Wednesday nights. I don't have class until 6:30 pm Tuesday night and Thursday afternoon my only class is at noon. It would probably even work for this summer. Work 5 to 9:30 at Target then got straight to work there until 7am. It would keep me from having to go back to Taco Bell at least. I don't know what I am going to do, I just know that I need to do it fast, before I do something stupidly irreversible.